Christine's Guestbook

Christine, you sound amazing! I am so HAPPY for you. Thank you for the sweet note. I do appreciate it. The roller coaster ride I understand all too well, and I am still on it. But good things are happening lately, one of them being that my 35 yr old son and his wife are moving back to CA, and it will only be a 40 minute car ride away from me. So exciting, and so fantastic for me. I will see him next week when he comes on his own to begin looking for a house to rent. He is selling his home in CO, but will be renting here until they decide where they wish to settle down....long story! Every day is a roller coaster ride for me, and it is a constant effort on my part to keep myself evenly keeled. I'm not depressed, or sad. I am still ever so grateful, but at times I feel that I'm struggling emotionally. I don't know who I want to be. So each day, I try to let go of my ego, remove myself from stressful situations, and do what I have to do to get through the day. Something happened to me after the surgery that I cannot explain. Was it the fear of death, the fear of being forgotten......or have I not gotten over the trauma of the surgery? Is it simply PTSD! I don't know. But I'm giving myself a break, I'm nicer to myself, and I let myself feel what it is I'm feeling. I'm letting go, each day, and trying to move on with my life. If anyone should know what this feels like, its you! that roller coaster ride that you wanted to get off, it sounds like you have reached your destination. :-)

Christine, I left the information about the shirts under your question on Bill's post. I just wanted to make sure you found it. Let me know if I can help. I haven't received mine yet, but it says it will get here on or before July 13th. Hope you're doing well! Hugs, Tammy