Janelle's Guestbook

Janelle Hurst  I'm doing ok overall.  For the most part, I feel like I'm back to normal.  I still have a little numbness in the center of my chest from the nerve block.  I had minimally invasive surgery so my scar is actually along the bottom half of my areola on my right breast and then I have a scar from the chest tube under my right breast...sometimes I look at my scars and can't believe I really went through heart surgery and then other times they annoy me (I've always embraced scars before, so not sure why I feel that way sometimes). I've had on/off issues with my blood pressure getting too low since the surgery, mainly from being on metoprolol and then spironolactone (diuretic), had issues again in the beginning of August, so I had to go off both meds.  The rollercoaster of feeling good and then feeling completely depleted was rough, especially with work being so stressful too.  I was supposed to try to go back on the spironolactone but I just am done with the rollercoaster.  I graduated from cardiac rehab at the end of July and have not done any exercise since....first, because my BP got so low, but then because I just don't feel like it, and it's hot outside (excuses, but the truth).  I have always struggled with low energy anyhow and I have had issues with depression/anxiety for forever.  Right now, I think the biggest energy-sapper is my job.  I love what I do, but the drama/short staffing/politics, etc is just exhausting.  I do have an amazing therapist who I see monthly, but had seen her weekly after the end of my last relationship because of all the trauma. I learned a lot about myself and how to cope better.  But, I still struggle, I just deal with it better than I use to.  

How have you been feeling this past week?  Do you feel you noticed changes every week with how you feel?  

I apologize if my post is all over the place, I'm exhausted - off to bed.  
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