Barbara's Journal

Susan Lynn  Barbara - You've definitely had a long and winding road to recovery, but you will get there. There's always someone here to offer you a few words of support - don't hesitate to reach out! Sending you a virtual hug! ❤

Alex Sigalov  Hi Barbara, hope things get better for u; maybe try a different doctor if u are able to some are better than others

Rose Madura  Hi Barbara. I had a rocky recovery also so I know how you feel. I too think you need to contact your cardiologist for guidance.

Brian Hogge  Best wishes for a continued recovery Barbara! I am two weeks out from open heart surgery for a bad valve and aorta and can relate to the frustration. Every time something seems to go right, something else seems to come up bad. I can completely relate to waking up and feeling like "crap". I have use those same words for the past two weeks. I don't want to seem like a pill pusher, but the doctors in the hospital recommended giving me a dose of klonopin to help with anxiety/nerves. I am not really sure what type of mediation it is, but I think a low dose benzodiazapin. (Sorry bad spelling.) Not that the pill really solved the feeling like crap, but what it did help me with is that I realized the worry/anxiety of feeling like crap was making it 10 times worse. I guess it just helped put my mind at ease and helped me understand that feeling like crap is part of the recovery process and there was improvement day by day. I think I only got the pills twice, but it sure seemed to help and at least helped by understand the "crappy" feeling for what it is, something transitional and in reality I was getting a bit better each day. I hope tomorrow is a step in the right direction for you. Know that the crappy feeling does get better as time heals you. Best wishes and take care!

Marie Myers  Sounds like Brian makes a good point. Sometimes the anxiety and stress of the whole experience colors your day to day thoughts. I would speak to your cardiologist/internist to get their thoughts. Hoping things turn around for you soon!