Today is my two-week anniversary (if you’re allowed to have anniversaries for surgeries). The weather permitted walking outside over the weekend. I took ...Read more
Today is my two-week anniversary (if you’re allowed to have anniversaries for surgeries). The weather permitted walking outside over the weekend. I took a few with my good friend and brother-in-law, John (above picture). His heart is as big as his smile! So much has been crammed into these last two months—since I was first diagnosed with aortic valve stenosis. If they re-diagnosed me today, they might decide I suffer from a ridiculous amount of enthusiasm. My love and appreciation for life grows every day. We are all amazingly strong spirits! Much love, support, and prayers for all of you on this journey!
Tammi Gunwall Wonderful Ken! It's great to hear you're up and about and your spirits are high. :)
Adam Pick Two weeks already? Amazing. So excellent to read and feel your positive approach life Ken. Thanks for ... Read more
Adam Pick Two weeks already? Amazing. So excellent to read and feel your positive approach life Ken. Thanks for sharing!
You are doing GREAT KEN. Can not say I was looking that sharp at two weeks...keep up the great recov ... Read more
You are doing GREAT KEN. Can not say I was looking that sharp at two weeks...keep up the great recovery.
For me, today is Thanksgiving #65. But none of the previous 64 can compare to this one. There’s not even a close second. This is especially true when it comes ...Read more
For me, today is Thanksgiving #65. But none of the previous 64 can compare to this one. There’s not even a close second. This is especially true when it comes to appreciation and gratitude.
I confess that I have not always been the most appreciative and grateful person. But that’s the past. Thanksgiving 2014 is part of what I call “Life: Part Two.” And since I have a second chance at this thing called life, I’m hell bent on living it the right way. And part of “living it the right way” is moving gratefulness and appreciation way up the How-To-Live List. This, obviously, includes counting your blessings. I used to do that, sometimes, now and then. In “Part Two,” I don’t get out of bed until I’ve done my daily “counting of blessings.” What a difference this seemingly little thing makes! I know, I can be a slow learner. Humor me. Life is flat-out different when I start every day this way. It’s like launching a rocket that I can ride the rest of the day.
I had open-heart surgery last Wednesday. I’m STILL here. The photo included here was taken three days after surgery (70-hours for those who count in hours). Amazing, isn’t it? One day your chest is sawed in half — and you live off a heart-lung machine for few hours while a new valve is inserted to take the place of the old one. They wire Humpty Dumpty back together again, and, wala! The next day you’re eating meals while sitting in a chair! Talk about being grateful! How fortunate we are to have our heart conditions at THIS time — when the technology to pull off the above scenario is in place. How fortunate we are!
People ask, “Does it hurt?” I think it depends on what you mean by ‘hurt.’ If you mean is there physical pain, the answer is yes. But that’s managed and controlled by drugs. Whew! So, yeah, it hurts, sometimes. Sometimes it’s self-inflicted. If you try to catch something you just dropped by instinctively grabbing for it, like I did yesterday, it may feel like fireworks went off inside your chest. But that physical pain is temporary. It will probably give you a good scare too — just like a small child gets a good scare when they touch a hot stove for the first time. Overall, there’s not much pain to live with post-surgery because the pain-killers do their job. To minimize physical pain, follow the instructions to not lift, pull, or push over 5 pounds. Believe me, you’re body will instantly tell you when you’re pushing the envelope. And if something falls out of your hands or from the table — let it fall — unless you want to feel a shotgun go off in your chest.
Now, there’s another kind of pain. It’s not the physical pain I just talked about. Physical pain is physical pain is physical pain. But some people will still use the word ‘pain’ where I don’t. I refer to our reaction/response to the physical pain. Other people might use the word ‘suffering’ at this point. I recall hearing or reading the line “suffering is optional” years ago. That’s what I want to finish up with, and how it ties into counting my blessings.
I may not have control over the physical pain of open-heart surgery and recovery — beyond what pain-killers and relaxation techniques provide. But I DO have control over my response to it. And to the degree that I RESPOND to pain rather than REACT TO IT, to that degree I diminish my suffering. Yes, suffering is mostly if not completely optional when it comes to physical pain. It depends on whether I just react, or, choose to go beyond reaction to making a response. Reaction is automatic, unconscious. Response is a conscious choice.
When I find myself suffering, I discover I’m always stuck in my reaction. That’s a kind and nice way of saying that when I’m suffering, part of me is enjoying the drama. I speak only for myself here. Drama can be a huge attention-getter. When I see this operating in me, I want to gag myself. I’m not a soap-opera-type person; never have been. But if I’m not careful, if I’m not paying attention to my thoughts, I can slip into the very mode I want most to avoid. Call it a pity-party, drama, or whatever. For me, that side of the ‘pain’ equation is unnecessary and it’s a recipe for suffering. Suffering is not on my list of things-to-do in “Life: Part Two.” If I count my blessings, that helps me nip suffering in the bud.
If I don’t count my blessings, I can be real baby when it comes to pain. If I don’t count my blessings, I become a complainer, and, I believe I’m a victim. Thus do I make myself and others miserable. That’s not a recipe I want live by in “Life: Part Two.” Part Two leaves no wiggle room for my being a drama king, a victim, a complainer — or a thrower of pity parties.
Counting my blessings puts physical pain in a healthier perspective or context — and keeps it there. While counting blessings may not eliminate physical pain, it does prevent me from psychologically amplifying it, thereby creating unnecessary suffering.
This website, Adam Pick, and all the heroic people making their individual journeys through the valley-of-heart-surgery are a godsend. For all of you, for all that you’ve gone through and shared, and will go through and share, for your heroic stories, your wisdom, your caring, your support, your ‘being there’ for the rest of us — for all of this, and more, I am forever grateful.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Linda Crawford Ken, As usual, you got it just right. Haven't had my surgery yet and sometimes I am tempted to give i ... Read more
Linda Crawford Ken, As usual, you got it just right. Haven't had my surgery yet and sometimes I am tempted to give in a little to the "suffering" but as you said that is just not who I am. Thanks for the pep talk -- came at just the right time.
Tammi Gunwall So glad to hear from you Ken! You are an inspiration to as all here, and it is exactly why I love and ... Read more
Tammi Gunwall So glad to hear from you Ken! You are an inspiration to as all here, and it is exactly why I love and appreciate this site everyday. Its wonderful to hear you are doing well "on the other side" of heart surgery. Keep it up! Happy, Happy Thanksgiving to you!!
Tammy Pilcher Great post, heart brother! Couldn't have said it better!
Joan Napier Ken, Thanks for sharing your great insights. You are correct that we have so much to be grateful for ... Read more
Joan Napier Ken, Thanks for sharing your great insights. You are correct that we have so much to be grateful for this Thanksgiving day, and that is the gift of life itself! May God bless you as you begin your journey of recovery. And may you be home in the comfort of your own environment very soon :)
Nancy D You are able to write the words I have been processing over the past 3 months. You are still in hosp ... Read more
Nancy D You are able to write the words I have been processing over the past 3 months. You are still in hospital, and I am almost done cardiac rehab! I am a slow study apparently, but I so 'get it' as you so eloquently shared with us. I have been blessed with a new lease on life, and a far more positive attitude than before. I had a bit longer spell in the hallway of 'suffering' as you put it, until my head cleared and I realized I was adding to it in my head. Once I turned that corner, I felt unstoppable. Thank you for putting words to my journey! Take good care and know you and all of us here are blessed beyond measure!
Eleanor R You have described it well, Ken. Right before the surgery I would slip into a "why me?" mode, and ri ... Read more
Eleanor R You have described it well, Ken. Right before the surgery I would slip into a "why me?" mode, and right after I was susceptible to worrying about "now what?" and also reliving the "drama" of the surgery in my mind. Like you, I had to have a sit down meeting with myself and tell myself to basically "get over yourself". I found that if I just got up and moved around doing something small but useful I could occupy my mind with more productive things. I soon went back to volunteering in my community, just a few hours twice a week, doing something totally in the service of others and for me that always helps. In my case I volunteer with a local elementary school, and help the parent liaison officer by translating parent-teacher, PTA and other meetings for parents who don't yet have a sufficient grasp of our complicated English language, and helping a first grade teacher with five of her non-English speaking "friends" as they call students today. I like to see little eyes light up when I explain to them what the teacher has just taught (counting by fives, tens or twos, whether or not it is too windy to have outdoor recess, or whatever. When I come home, my feet are tired but my heart (my new and improved heart) is light. I wish you the best in your recovery. No more grabbing for things, and keep that pillow close at hand for sneezes, and you'll do great. Best wishes, Eleanor.
It’s 24 hours before surgery and the lack of anxiousness about it seems strange. Instead of fear and anxiety, there’s a calm, a peacefulness—even a confidence. ...Read more
It’s 24 hours before surgery and the lack of anxiousness about it seems strange. Instead of fear and anxiety, there’s a calm, a peacefulness—even a confidence. I attribute most of this to my experience last Monday (see my journal post on November 12).
My thoughts are with all of you—gratitude for everyone’s support and prayers, and for your inspiring courage and stories. Time to start packing for the hospital; I’ll get another post up as soon as possible after surgery (10:30 tomorrow morning). All systems are go; I go to surgery with both thumbs up!
Tammy Pilcher Ken, it sounds like you're describing my feelings the morning of my surgery. I prayed for peace and ... Read more
Tammy Pilcher Ken, it sounds like you're describing my feelings the morning of my surgery. I prayed for peace and courage and God gave it to me. I'll keep you in my prayers for a successful surgery and a great recovery! Your heart sister, Tammy
kathleen savoy Ken, God bless you tomorrow, He will be with you.
John Noriega Ken I totally understand how you feel. I was the same way the week leading to surgery. I felt at peac ... Read more
John Noriega Ken I totally understand how you feel. I was the same way the week leading to surgery. I felt at peace that all would be well, and if it wasn't I knew where I was going! I can't say that my wife and daughters and grandkids had the same peace about them, but they were gathered and prying together - so all would go well. I'll definitely be praying for you. After your Divine appointment last week - things are looking rosy! Look forward to reading some great posts from you. Onward & Upward!
Nancy D praying for a successful surgery, easy recovery and complete restoration of your health!!
Eleanor R I am wishing you the smoothest of surgeries, and a progressive recovery, better each day. Best wishe ... Read more
Eleanor R I am wishing you the smoothest of surgeries, and a progressive recovery, better each day. Best wishes to you and your team of supporters, family and friends. Eleanor
This happened two days ago, on Monday, November 10. It caused a huge shift in my pre-surgery concerns, has put me in almost permanent peace regarding surgery, ...Read more
This happened two days ago, on Monday, November 10. It caused a huge shift in my pre-surgery concerns, has put me in almost permanent peace regarding surgery, and fills me with inspiration every time I think about it. My brother Bill was there, so he is a witness. In fact, if it weren’t for Bill, this experience may not have happened.
Since I live alone, I’m staying at my brother’s for the week prior to surgery. Surgery is next Wednesday, Nov. 19. Monday was Bill’s day off of work and he has errands to run. He said he was going to the bank (inside of Meijer’s), then to Tri-County Mall, then back home. At first I decided I would stay home and just relax because walking too much can put me out of breath. Two things happened at this point that have an impact on what follows. One, I changed my mind and went along for the ride, and two, Bill reversed his stops, going to the mall first and making the bank inside Meijer’s the last stop. I only mention this because if we didn’t make these two changes, what follows doesn’t happen.
Fast forward to Meijer’s. Bill goes over to the bank while I take a cart into the vegetable section. About ten minutes go by. I finish collecting my vegetables, look up to find Bill, and see him standing over by the bank window, talking to an elderly couple. Bill sees me and waves me over.
As I approach the three, Bill says, smiling real big, “Ken, I’d like you to meet someone I just met. This is Jim and his wife Ginny.” We all shook hands. My brother continues, “I just met Jim, and guess what? Seven weeks ago he had the same heart valve replaced as you’re having replaced next week.”
I was stunned, positively stunned. Here, standing in front of me, alive and well, was a living example of what I have been hoping and praying for over the last five weeks! I’ve read many success stories on this website, all of which inspire me. But this took inspiration to the next level: an in-person, face-to-face meeting with a ‘survivor.’ And not just a survivor, but even more than that. Ready?
In the next few minutes, I learned that Jim received a ‘tissue’ valve, not a mechanical one. There’s another coincidence! I too chose a tissue valve. I learned that Jim had his surgery at the same hospital I was going to: Mercy Hospital – Fairfield! The emotions, and tears, were building up inside of me as the seconds ticked by. But there was a final, nail-in-the-coffin to this story.
My brother, with this smile in his eye, said, “And guess who performed Jim’s surgery?” Without waiting for my answer, Bill said, “Dr. Cook.” Dr. Cook is replacing my aortic valve! Now, I don’t know what facial expression I wore when I heard Dr. Cook’s name. But I can tell you that Dr. Cook’s name bounced around, no, his name DANCED around the walls of my brain like a thought drunk on joy.
Hearing this was surreal. Yes, I was physically standing in a supermarket with my brother and two new acquaintances, but in another way, it was like I was simultaneously existing in another dimension, like I was awake inside a dream I was having. It’s hard to describe. And Jim no longer seemed like a regular human being to me. Yeah, he was human, but he was more than that. He was a messenger, a messenger from someone or something my eyes can’t see. And everything that occurred since Bill and I changed our minds back at his house an hour ago was, in a way I can’t comprehend, orchestrated in such a way so this messenger could deliver his message that was specifically targeted to me.
I remember saying, “I have to hug you” to Jim, and hugging him like he was some precious divine gift. I know I hugged him at least one more time, and I remember hugging his wife, Ginny, a couple of times as well. But all during this time, I felt like I wasn’t completely in the time/space reality I was so accustomed to. There was an ‘air of reality’ about what was going on that made ‘normal’ take on a temporary sense of unreality. I give up trying to explain the feeling.
But the impact this had on me is easy to explain. As far as I’m concerned, the universe somehow arranged for a messenger named Jim to deliver the message I most needed to hear. The message? “You are not only going to survive surgery, but you’re going to be fine!” Why else would this encounter take place if this wasn’t the message? It can’t be sheer coincidence—there were too many coincidences (many I haven’t explained) for this to be an accident. It couldn’t possibly serve any other purpose. If I’m to die or come through with complications, then this ‘visitation of health and vibrancy’ makes no sense whatsoever.
So, I’ve been at much peace ever since. If any angst arises, I cut it off immediately by thinking of Jim, standing there in Meijer’s, telling me his story of how the same surgeon installed the same type of valve in the same hospital seven weeks ago. This ‘angel’ stepped into my life as a total stranger, delivered the message, then went his way, leaving me at peace regarding what’s on my soul’s calendar over the coming weeks and months.
There’s another aspect to this event that I hope inspires my friends on this site, and it’s this: we are not alone on our journey. Yes, each of us has our support team on this physical side of life, but we also have an invisible support team – call it what you want. I’m convinced that’s how and why Jim stepped into my life for those few, magnificent minutes in Meijer’s. You might say Jim was used by the invisible for their or its purpose. This experience has upgraded my trust regarding next week and the weeks that follow to a whole new level. However you choose to interpret it or the context in which you place it, I hope it does the same for you.
We are in good hands, both visible and invisible, in all ways, and always.
May the path you walk be a peaceful one, full of trust,
Ken
Tammy Pilcher Oh Ken, that is wonderful! Our Father God is soooo good! He does place people in our paths everyday ... Read more
Tammy Pilcher Oh Ken, that is wonderful! Our Father God is soooo good! He does place people in our paths everyday to help us or for us to help them. And all He asks in return is for our love. I am so happy this happened to you!
John Noriega What a great story Ken...is shows how well we are protected by a loving Creator! Friends and family w ... Read more
John Noriega What a great story Ken...is shows how well we are protected by a loving Creator! Friends and family who pray for us as we go through life. Why He even places people in from to of us who are just witnesses to show the awesome power of life! I met a gentleman who is 80 years old and had his AVR surgery 5 years and he says that even now he feels better than he did back then. These are not coincidences, but Divine Appointments! When you're recovering from surgery, just be willing to give your testimony to others so they, too, can have the hope and peace tht you now have.
Onward & Upward!
Eleanor R What we call "coincidences" are not that at all, right? You were meant to meet Jim, there is no othe ... Read more
Eleanor R What we call "coincidences" are not that at all, right? You were meant to meet Jim, there is no other explanation for it, and bless your brother for starting the conversation that you needed to hear. Best wishes to you all.
Terrie Syvertsen Ken- wonderful story and now you are in the state of mind you needed to be for when it is your turn t ... Read more
Terrie Syvertsen Ken- wonderful story and now you are in the state of mind you needed to be for when it is your turn to roll into surgery with confidence and with the knowledge that recovery will be right around that
corner and it will be you helping out someone yourself as they start their journey. Take care & continue to BELIEVE!
D. Carol Moore Ken: God is always there for us.... an anointed visit ordained by God
Ruth Valenzuela What a beautiful story and I've been told nothing is coincidental. God ordered that for you!
Meredith Bray I received several "undeniable truths" in the weeks leading up to my surgery. Thanks for sharing!
Ken Obermeyer Thanks to all of you for your comments! That unshakeable peace remains intact four days later. :-)
John Noriega My wife & I went to eat lunch after seeing my cardiologist yesterday (which I'll post about a bit lat ... Read more
John Noriega My wife & I went to eat lunch after seeing my cardiologist yesterday (which I'll post about a bit later) and we met a man who had his surgery 4 months ago. he was looking pretty good despite some other health issues that he has. I am in awe at how many of us are out there! Just keep up the good fight Ken!
Onward & Upward!
Ken Obermeyer Thanks John! I love your upbeat spirit.
Nancy D Ken, that was a God thing right there, and the universe was aligned correctly so you could go into su ... Read more
Nancy D Ken, that was a God thing right there, and the universe was aligned correctly so you could go into surgery calm, confident and feeling very blessed!! Awesome story, I have goose bumps after reading it. I am very happy you had this peace filled experience prior to your surgery! I look forward to your stories of healing and restoring to wonderful health ahead!
Preparing for heart-valve-surgery (HVS) is one of the common denominators on this website. And I am so thankful, so grateful to NOT be traveling this road alone. ...Read more
Preparing for heart-valve-surgery (HVS) is one of the common denominators on this website. And I am so thankful, so grateful to NOT be traveling this road alone. It can be scary at times. And it’s at those times I turn to the journals of my fellow travelers. The people on this website are my heroes. What they went through, are going through, or will go through is a walk through the valley of death.
That takes a lot of courage, lots of trust, and a huge dose of surrender — all wonderful traits to have or develop. These people are amazing. Their stories, although common, are also highly individual. To me, one of the interesting aspects of this shared journey is this: though we walk this road together, we still walk it alone. We walk beside each other, encouraging and inspiring each other, but each one of us still has to take our own steps, one at a time, and no one can do that for us.
Knowing where these steps will lead us isn’t always a certainty. This journey is riddled with uncertainties. Facing death isn’t a theory or intellectual exercise for these people. It’s a reality that has to be faced, head on, now, today. There’s also facing possible complications, and a recovery process with its own unknown twists and turns. There are other unknowns, and all this, and more, lies on the road of HVS.
Another thing about this journey is there’s no training school you can go to as preparation. The journey IS the training school. You make this journey ‘on-the-fly.’ Each hour of each day contains what I’ll call ‘moments of reconciliation.’ You have to settle or resolve something related to your HVS. Most of it is internal — coming to terms with fear, anxiety, uncertainty, helplessness, etc. And just when you think you’ve finally reconciled something, it rears its head again, and sometimes, again, and again, and again.
Each day, each individual puts one foot in front of the other on their journey. Sometimes the foot trembles, sometimes its calm. At other times it’s cautious and at other times it’s firm. But each day these steps are taken, one by one, by the courageous souls on this website. Some might ask, “How can you call me courageous when I get scared? How can you call me courageous when I break down and cry in fear at times?”
The answer is simple: you make the journey anyway. You’re taking your steps, every day, day in and day out, whether you’re wearing a smile or have a face wetted by tears. You keep on keeping on, despite fear, despite anxiety, despite death. You keep on keeping on. That’s courageous as hell. That’s why you’re my heroes.
Eleanor R You have captured it perfectly, Ken. In June of this year I was doing what you are doing, reading, r ... Read more
Eleanor R You have captured it perfectly, Ken. In June of this year I was doing what you are doing, reading, researching, and finding people on this website who were headed to the same destination as I, although on their own path. It was such a comfort to read past journals of folks who had come through the surgery, the ICU, and the recovery at home. And I was lucky enough to have folks reach out to me, sharing their experience, or preparation of hospital stay and more importantly, homecoming. A planner and a worrier by nature, I had covered all the "what if" and actually got some good out of it, by taking my affairs which were already "in order" and gathering them into a red folder on the desk in my home office, "just in case". An ex-girl scout, I find when I am prepared, I usually do not even need what I had prepared, and was happy to have this reconfirmed to me when I was home and walking around the house five days after surgery. Now the challenge comes to keep doing well, to keep up a type of cardiac rehab once the formal session conclude in December, and force myself into the gym to keep up gains made. I have been released by the cardiologist and the general practitioner for another six months, so it is up to me now to continue to strengthen myself. I wish the very same for you, the smoothest of surgeries and a steady recovery, keeping that lovely smile on your face for many more years.
Ken Obermeyer Wow, thank you for sharing this Eleanor! You're one of the heroes of which I speak. No doubt you will ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer Wow, thank you for sharing this Eleanor! You're one of the heroes of which I speak. No doubt you will complete your journey perfectly. And thanks for your loving and supportive wishes.
Linda Crawford Thank you Ken for saying what is in my heart. The knowledge that there are others who understand mov ... Read more
Linda Crawford Thank you Ken for saying what is in my heart. The knowledge that there are others who understand moved me to tears. I am so grateful not to have to face this alone.
Elaine Foster Well said Ken! Wow, you wrote what I would if I could express myself as well as you and others on th ... Read more
Elaine Foster Well said Ken! Wow, you wrote what I would if I could express myself as well as you and others on this site. I'm a big reader, but putting my own thoughts on paper is hard for me. So, thanks for putting words to your thoughts and for all of us too.
Tammy Pilcher Oh my goodness, Ken. That is one of the most beautiful and spot on posts I've read! You've managed ... Read more
Tammy Pilcher Oh my goodness, Ken. That is one of the most beautiful and spot on posts I've read! You've managed to put into words exactly what we're going through. Thank you, your heart sister, Tammy
Ken Obermeyer You all bring tears to my eyes, tears of appreciation. It is you who inspired my post and I'm moved b ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer You all bring tears to my eyes, tears of appreciation. It is you who inspired my post and I'm moved beyond words by your kind comments. Thank you Eleanor, Linda, Elaine, and heart-sister Tammy. You are my inspiration!
Joan Napier Ken, Your words are beautiful and very moving. Thank you for putting in to words what we all think, b ... Read more
Joan Napier Ken, Your words are beautiful and very moving. Thank you for putting in to words what we all think, but may not express. I agree, all here are very courageous and inspiring. We are blessed by one another.
Daniel Spurgeon Ken, I think your view is spot on, especially for me. Just as I was overcoming my hip issues I got h ... Read more
Daniel Spurgeon Ken, I think your view is spot on, especially for me. Just as I was overcoming my hip issues I got hit with an aneurysm out of left field and went through a denial process. Scheduling a surgery helped me move into acceptance and reduced my stress quite a bit.
My surgeon told me to have any necessary dental work done before my valve surgery. To comply with that order, I had four teeth pulled yesterday. That’s what ...Read more
My surgeon told me to have any necessary dental work done before my valve surgery. To comply with that order, I had four teeth pulled yesterday. That’s what 65-year-olds-without-insurance do when old root canals fail them. You stop throwing money at your mouth; you have the darn things pulled and join the denture or bridge generation.
With swollen face, I feel like Alvin the Chipmunk on codeine. I fantasize about my next meal with solid food because drinking my meals is already getting a bit old. Not complaining; just sharing an unusual fantasy. It’s the little things in life, like being able to chew your food instead of gum it to death, that jump out at you at times like this.
I see this as a warm-up exercise for my valve surgery in T-minus 11 days. It’s a chance to run a few laps around the there-will-be-some-pain-during-recovery track. It’s something you just do — with as little complaining as possible. Preferably, none. How to do this? I count my blessings.
I may have to drink my meals, but at least I have the meals. Others are sifting the garbage cans on Vine Street for their next meal. I also have a stomach that can digest my meals; some people are left to eating through their veins.
I have a tongue to say “I love you” while the mute has to say it with their hands. What about the mute who has no hands?
I have arms to hug someone while others have no arms and are left to thinking about it.
I can walk while others stumble, or have to wheel themselves around in chairs.
I can see the smiles on friendly faces while the blind are denied that beauty.
I can hear the sound of the blowing wind and of birds chirping; others are born, never to know what sound is like.
The ways to be thankful, to be grateful, are countless. Counting my blessings is my personal antidote for complaining. It reminds me to appreciate the smallest of things.
The first rays of sunlight are breaking through the morning clouds. Sunrise is occurring. Wow. I can see it! I can see it! Wow!
D. Carol Moore Beautifully written, Ken. You have the inspiring gift of a writer. Have you done Poetry before?
Ken Obermeyer I love to write and try poetry now and then. More of a hobby though. I guess I like playing with word ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer I love to write and try poetry now and then. More of a hobby though. I guess I like playing with words to see what combination will capture what I'm feeling. Thanks for your kind words Carol!
D. Carol Moore My pleasure and keep up the good work for I am sure that you are touching many in an inspiring and po ... Read more
D. Carol Moore My pleasure and keep up the good work for I am sure that you are touching many in an inspiring and positive way.
Joan Napier I agree with D. Carol. You have a gift with the written word. Thank you for reminding us all about gr ... Read more
Joan Napier I agree with D. Carol. You have a gift with the written word. Thank you for reminding us all about gratitude, which helps to put our challenges in perspective.
I just got off the phone with the nurse from my surgeon’s office. It’s the call I both wanted and didn’t want to receive: a date for surgery. For the ...Read more
I just got off the phone with the nurse from my surgeon’s office. It’s the call I both wanted and didn’t want to receive: a date for surgery. For the last two weeks I’ve been saying I just want to get the surgery over with. And now that a date is set, I don’t find myself relieved. I guess the reality of it all is finally beginning to hit me. I’ll be okay, but it does feel good admitting the fear rather than pushing it away. I’m so glad Adam built this website!!!
Nancy D The wait is the hard part....glad yours isn't too long! Soon you will be in recovery mode and workin ... Read more
Nancy D The wait is the hard part....glad yours isn't too long! Soon you will be in recovery mode and working your way to Life-Part 2! (like that term, may have to borrow it!) ;-)
Ken Obermeyer THIS is why I'm so glad Adam built this site; people like you abound, and being a newbie here, I coul ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer THIS is why I'm so glad Adam built this site; people like you abound, and being a newbie here, I couldn't have found a better 'second home.' It's funny Nancy mentioned life, part 2, because I've used that exact phrase a few times the last few weeks. And isn't that the truth; it is part 2. Thank you for your supportive comments! :-)
Nancy D I mentioned it because you posted it! Great thought! This site is a wealth of information and suppo ... Read more
Nancy D I mentioned it because you posted it! Great thought! This site is a wealth of information and supportive friends, all at different stages of valve surgery. Take good care!
Ken, I feel the same way. I wish I could just get it over with already but every time I see the doct ... Read more
Ken, I feel the same way. I wish I could just get it over with already but every time I see the doctor, I find myself hoping it's not time for surgery. So far I'm still waiting but I do understand the feeling you describe. This is the place to be for support. There's definitely no shortage of it here. :)
Ken Obermeyer I told my cardiologist that whenever I talk to you or any other doctor or surgeon, my fear is at its ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer I told my cardiologist that whenever I talk to you or any other doctor or surgeon, my fear is at its worst, but when I talk with family and friends, I can laugh and relieve the stress. Thanks Karen!
Melinda Hacker Hi Ken. I had AVR surgery 16 days ago. I'm the proud owner of a pericardial bovine valve and feel g ... Read more
Melinda Hacker Hi Ken. I had AVR surgery 16 days ago. I'm the proud owner of a pericardial bovine valve and feel great. I had to wait nearly two months from the day my surgery date was set until the day of surgery. I tried to carry on as usual and did a lot of planning to make sure everything at work and home would be covered during my hospital stay. As it turned out, I was in the hospital only 4 days. My journal gives some details about my surgery that you may find helpful. I found a lot of comfort knowing that the success rate with this type of surgery is so good. You can do this!
Ken Obermeyer Thank you Melinda! I read through your journal and it WAS helpful. And here I was planning on using p ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer Thank you Melinda! I read through your journal and it WAS helpful. And here I was planning on using pullovers rather than button downs. Whew. It's the little things that count. Thanks again. Reading your success story is very encouraging!
Elaine Foster What valve did your surgeon suggest for you? Mechanical or tissue? I am researching and trying to ma ... Read more
Elaine Foster What valve did your surgeon suggest for you? Mechanical or tissue? I am researching and trying to make up my mind for my Dec. surgery. My 1st surgeon consult was fine with a bovine valve, but my 2nd opinion surgeon prefers the On-x mechanical valve for me (age 57).
Ken Obermeyer Hi Elaine. My surgeon explained the pros and cons of mechanical and tissue valves. Keep in mind that ... Read more
Ken Obermeyer Hi Elaine. My surgeon explained the pros and cons of mechanical and tissue valves. Keep in mind that I’m 65. He said a tissue heart valve, such as bovine, lasts about 10 years, give or take. That was the con. The pro was: you’re not taking blood thinners. With a mechanical valve, though they last much longer (the pro), you live on blood thinners the rest of your life (the con). I chose the tissue valve because of the blood thinner issue. If I happen to outlive the tissue valve, I’ll cross that bridge at that time. In the meantime, I’m more interested in the quality of my life post-surgery. And for me, living on coumandin or its cousins doesn’t add to my quality of life. I paid attention to my feelings as I thought about the pros and cons of each. I easily recognized I ‘felt’ better, more peaceful, when I thought about the tissue valve. Thinking about the mechanical valve always had an element of fear. So, what brings YOU peace? Hope this helps. (I'll post this same answer on your journal page).
Joan Napier Ken, I understand your ambivalence. Having a date for HVS makes it a reality, and brings up a whole l ... Read more
Joan Napier Ken, I understand your ambivalence. Having a date for HVS makes it a reality, and brings up a whole lot of feelings ranging from fear and anxiety to hopefulness and gratitude that one will be feeling "new and improved" after surgery and recovery. What has helped me is to make lists of tasks that I need to accomplish before surgery, as well as reaching out for support from family, friends, and our HVS friends on this site. Everyone here understands and is willing to share their experiences. Since your surgery is coming up soon, the time will fly by! Good luck with everything.
Kathryn Waymire Hi ken, I've not had surgery yet will know more Nov 13 weather it's close or I still have some time. ... Read more
Kathryn Waymire Hi ken, I've not had surgery yet will know more Nov 13 weather it's close or I still have some time. You will be fine and yes I will be facing the same anxious feeling when it's my time and I can feel yours. But God Has your Back !
Ken Obermeyer Joan and Kathryn: I posted replies in your journal. We'll all shine post-surgery!