Kim's Journal

Well things have taken a turn and I was admitted to hospital on the 14th because my haemoglobin had gone down to 60 (6 for those elsewhere) and my iron was only 3. Needless to say I was feeling pretty crappy. Its now the 19th and after 4 blood transfusions and an iron infusion and numerous tests my levels are back up. I have the results of one more test to come, which should be in tomorrow, before I will find out if I am stable enough for my surgery on Tuesday. It was bad enough waiting before but it seems so much worse now. I have no idea if its going to happen and its scarey because they now tell me the severity is bordering on the critical level.

I have been reading the stories and journals of the members here for the last three months and I have to say I am amazed and awed by the courage and tenacity of each of you. It is my hope that I can face this with the same strength of purpose. At the moment all I feel is the fear of having this surgery and the fear of not having it.